New Year Reflections @ 3 a.m.
Pant suits, blouses, knee-length skirts. The bag of neatly folded work clothes scream adult-hood and why wouldn’t they? I’m 24 years old for goodness sake.
I’m not some 17 year old new blood with my whole life ahead of me. This isn’t my lackluster 21 first birthday dinner. This isn’t the first week I spent out of college or my first major break up. This is the do or die period of my life. No more take backs. It’s either shut up or screw-up. There are only 3 years till my high school reunion and I better have something to say for myself.
That is why this year I have created a real list of resolutions. I won’t lie to you; I’m not going to change. I fear the time to actually change has come and gone when my brain fully developed but these resolutions won’t require that much of me. I do enjoy attainable goals.
It is time to put the whiskey aside. I have spent 21 years of my life not drinking, so really I have much more experience with it and if I were to make a pro and cons list whiskey would never really win, ever, I mean really, ever.
Listen to music more. I need to listen to the good, the bad, the delightful and the non-lyrical. This should cross every genre and span many generations. This will ensure I don’t become a music snob. No one wants to be friends with a music snob. That means that even a good ol’ country song is okay sometimes.
Keep some sort of perspective. Don’t ever forget about that small child who is working overseas for shit pay to make little stuffed bears we sell at the dollar store. At the same time it is okay for me to be disappointed by a few things in my life, I’m only human.
Don’t constantly dredge up bad memories. Who is that helping? Most likely no one and it definitely hurts me.
Love. This sounds stupid, I don’t care. I should have more of this emotion than anything else, no excuses.
I feel like if this is the loose outline for my 2014 then I should have a happy and successful year. It’s about the little things because without them we would be nothing but a pile of atoms that never met.